Midnight Update: 60 Days

It’s currently 11:44 p.m. but we’ll round up to midnight. I know this is kind of a bad idea writing this late (seeing that I have to be up in 4 hours), but I desperately need to write.

60 days. 60 wholesome, great summer days until I walk into four years of self-discovery. Within these four years, I’ll hopefully make lifelong friends, figure out my major/career path, grow both mentally and physically, and ultimately figure out who A.J. really is. It’s an exciting (and slightly frightening) notion to think that I will be approaching an environment that not only fosters, but encourages each and every facet of discovery. But before I get too ahead of myself, I need to fully bask in the 60 days of worry free, young adult life that I still have.

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AHHH CRAZINESS

 

Posts from fellow trees such as Vincent Nicandro’s “200/250 Vision” or Izzy Angus’s “Being More “Me”” have reiterated why I needed to write tonight (and have reiterated that I’m not alone in my thinking). Both Vincent and Izzy write (beautifully, if I may add) about finding the direction in your life and truly figuring out who you are.

Within the past month, I have told numerous people, “I need to figure myself out before I head off to college.” But the more that I circulate this question through my head, the more and more I realize that it’s not going to be possible to figure myself out in less than 60 days. And that’s okay. If this summer has taught me anything, it’s that it is entirely acceptable to not have a totally developed schematic of exactly every event that will ever occur in your lifetime. I know that I have an entire life ahead of me to figure myself out. Will things remain the same? Sure, I hope that I can maintain my moral compass and ensure that I remain to support causes I wholeheartedly believe in. I thought that I could map out my entire life, living each day as it would best suit my ‘end game.’ Little did I know that living each day with just a hint of spontaneity is exactly what I needed to be happy. And echoing many of the sentiments expressed in both of my peers’ blog posts, I am very happy with where life is headed and I am so excited to see where life takes me.

But before any of this college journey starts, I truly do need to maximize the few days I have left with the people who I hold closest to my heart. It’s insane to think that some of the people that I have created such strong ties with are leaving in less than 14 days. Holy cow… 14 days. While the farewells are going to suck, I know that as everyone heads off to their respective college, they will reach new heights and will be über successful.

These next few weeks are going to be filled with unforgettable memories, hearty laughs, and temporary goodbyes. But Stanford, I’m coming for you with an open mind and an open heart – I’ll see you in 60 days 🙂

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12:34 am – last minute revisions yo

It’s now 12:22 a.m. I think I’m going to head off to bed, but to anyone who reads this, there are two things: (1) go out with your friends and make memories, you’ll fondly reminisce on these experiences later; and (2) it’s okay not to have everything figured out, everything will fall into place.

Until next time,

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5 responses to “Midnight Update: 60 Days

  1. What a wonderful blog post is. The subject is apropos. Why rush to find out who your are and how you as a young adult going to Stanford will fit in and contribute to society the moment you step on that campus in a mere 60 days…there is no rush to figure who you are, that will come in time…when you discover who you are, everything else will fall into place.

    Some are lucky to know who they are as a person, an individual and plan how their life or lives will turn out. Some will fail at this and struggle with finding themselves while others will succeed….you may not know who you are now but life’s many mysteries will help guide you to who you are and how your contributions will affect those around you….

    Never fall into the trap of trying to be something you are not while trying to please others…always remember, the only person that can truly take care of you is you! Answers to questions you may have about who you are will come to you in waves, sometimes they won’t but there will always be an answer…there is no need to rush to find who you are…that’s what makes life’s many ebbs and flows the most exciting…when you discover who you are and what you are meant to be and how this will affect not only your loved ones, your friends and you, everything else will be a piece of cake….

    Exciting times ahead for you AJ and your peeps, those in your inner circle that will be friends for life. I am blessed to have a couple of friends from high school, and a few friends from work that combined I have endless memories filled with laughter, tears, love and joy!!

    Life is mysterious but enJOY the ride AJ…enJOY the ride!!!!

    Looking forward to your journey of finding yourself, defining who you are and the successes that will come your way!!!

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    • Yes, I am not one of those lucky people who knows exactly who they are and where they are going, but I’m enjoying the ride so far… Thank you for the support 🙂

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  2. “I thought that I could map out my entire life, living each day as it would best suit my ‘end game.’”

    So many opportunities to make memories throughout Senior Year were squandered by my obsession with this idea, so I’m glad I’m not crazy. Live it up, man, can’t wait to meet you :~)

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