It’s currently 11:44 p.m. but we’ll round up to midnight. I know this is kind of a bad idea writing this late (seeing that I have to be up in 4 hours), but I desperately need to write.
60 days. 60 wholesome, great summer days until I walk into four years of self-discovery. Within these four years, I’ll hopefully make lifelong friends, figure out my major/career path, grow both mentally and physically, and ultimately figure out who A.J. really is. It’s an exciting (and slightly frightening) notion to think that I will be approaching an environment that not only fosters, but encourages each and every facet of discovery. But before I get too ahead of myself, I need to fully bask in the 60 days of worry free, young adult life that I still have.
Posts from fellow trees such as Vincent Nicandro’s “200/250 Vision” or Izzy Angus’s “Being More “Me”” have reiterated why I needed to write tonight (and have reiterated that I’m not alone in my thinking). Both Vincent and Izzy write (beautifully, if I may add) about finding the direction in your life and truly figuring out who you are.
Within the past month, I have told numerous people, “I need to figure myself out before I head off to college.” But the more that I circulate this question through my head, the more and more I realize that it’s not going to be possible to figure myself out in less than 60 days. And that’s okay. If this summer has taught me anything, it’s that it is entirely acceptable to not have a totally developed schematic of exactly every event that will ever occur in your lifetime. I know that I have an entire life ahead of me to figure myself out. Will things remain the same? Sure, I hope that I can maintain my moral compass and ensure that I remain to support causes I wholeheartedly believe in. I thought that I could map out my entire life, living each day as it would best suit my ‘end game.’ Little did I know that living each day with just a hint of spontaneity is exactly what I needed to be happy. And echoing many of the sentiments expressed in both of my peers’ blog posts, I am very happy with where life is headed and I am so excited to see where life takes me.
But before any of this college journey starts, I truly do need to maximize the few days I have left with the people who I hold closest to my heart. It’s insane to think that some of the people that I have created such strong ties with are leaving in less than 14 days. Holy cow… 14 days. While the farewells are going to suck, I know that as everyone heads off to their respective college, they will reach new heights and will be über successful.
These next few weeks are going to be filled with unforgettable memories, hearty laughs, and temporary goodbyes. But Stanford, I’m coming for you with an open mind and an open heart – I’ll see you in 60 days 🙂
It’s now 12:22 a.m. I think I’m going to head off to bed, but to anyone who reads this, there are two things: (1) go out with your friends and make memories, you’ll fondly reminisce on these experiences later; and (2) it’s okay not to have everything figured out, everything will fall into place.
Until next time,